outside i c u

so dark
feeling so dark
today...
so tired of
milking blood
i don't like it
at all
can't be in
this club
sure...
coming is ok:
electrified plastic
sliding
     in and out
        over and over
and its 10 second release
back into the hell
of unfilled promise
wasted time
desperate yearning
                         i want more
i want to
be in love
don't care
if i die
trying
or
i find u
i don't care
either way is
allright with me
but im really tired of