Traveling

traveling in the
pocket of others
a lonely way
to see the world
forgotten like a
piece of lint
left behind on
dresser tops
with keys and coins
traveling through out
the years of
memories long gone
and as fresh
as the tracks
of wolves
stalking their prey
a moment of
sadness
a glimmer of love
long ago forgotten
restless nights of;
she once was...
and sleep comes
slowly now
while the words of
deeply held promises
are written in
the swirling waters,
entangled and obscure,
of meandering rivers
that always
flowww from now
to never
breath in
the deep water
i remember every
pebble
everyevery
uttered word
every whispered
thought

drink

i drink ur tears
taste ur blood
flying acrossssss
the burning sandss
i enter ur
scorched wilderness
this cup of
sun and moon
i place on
ur lips
   drinkdrink
untillll the
blood of the wolf
and the heart of
the lost
become one
foreversail
this sea of pain
let me sleep
inside ur heart of
darkness like
a tiny moth
of another time
and another
world
far from the agony
of everyday
   comenexttome

Bai Ling in The Gene Generation

Sigh....

Sigh....
what do i
dream of...
i wonder
i gather every tear
i drink every tear
and they fall
from my eyes
your tears
rolling down my cheeks
and i die
one million
deaths
still i thirst for
this smiling hell
so tangled in
purple and
    deep dark blues
i c u in
me
and u c me
 in u
and the stone of hatred
slips from my hand
and the stone of love
slips
slowly
from my hand
to a certain
place in the sand
and the stone in
tjhe sand
jump up
into my fist
from my mouth
at the
masters
of war
but still
the stone
slips
from hand
an we walk away together

k
what else
   can i hold on to...
             and it was then
    she took me
                 in her arms

incomplete... i have
run out of words
i have
no words
that
have not
spoken before
have been
felt before
have not
been heard before

poem from my most beloved friend

THE BOY…..WHO SANG ME I saw a voice coming to me Not running…but can be If you called him….. He will come…….. I don’t want the fast shock to stop…… And idont want a start….. Iwant to know where my tears go…. He can mix happiness with every wall….wvery chair…….every glass of coffee……every silent tone on his table…………..ispent my days behind green rivers……..idont just hold my self……I tried to shake trees…iwalk between long lines to let a pearl swim…not on the surface……my eyes are brown….the only thing that they don’t say…..colors cant say what it means…..by herself it can make an empty lightning that might light ur red heart……….and as much as I lost……I have me…left….listening so close when ur hands r trying to make a smell ……..close to hell….a gray rock who cant be hit by its water….it can be traveled to a bee to make random feelings ……can inside a piano or a girl into a real novel….into a real far world….i just find a feet to step …..and bring a gray picture for his jacket his wreckage….and his journey………..

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havemercy

i stripper whore
having shed everything
tired and poor
blamed for the
sins
visited on me...
fucked and told
to get a job
to get a god
to get a life
all in the space
it takes
to put it away
and zip it up
and throw down
a few pieces
of worthless currency
of the great society
that
has no family left
prison,
country club of the
brown and
poor
now sucks more
dollars
than
but less than
the cocksucking drones
the five and dime
waitress on you
hand and foot
waiting for some
kind of
compensation
receiving the worthless trac
thanks for the great time
baby
this is our
favorite place
and u r our
favorite hollywood
waitresswhore
: get a god
:get a job
oh and by the way
the fries
were a bit greasy

10 ...

10 years ago...
she left me ,
without a note
without a good bye
for my sake
I'm sure...
ur a woman
     she said...
many times
    u should love a man
i can't
i said
i don't know how
there is no
    happy ending here
only confusion
and she is gone
i look in the mirror
i'm a boy
i'm a boy
and I
don't know
why.
      she left me...

BABYMETAL - ギミチョコ！！- Gimme chocolate!! - Live Music Video

goddess Moon

goddess moon
shivering naked
streetcorner madonna
in dark cresent
            nights of
 winddriven
ridge peaks
her  icey despair
peers sadly down
on lonelyman
old and forgotten
as he remembers,
tan pony tailed
tank top
peddle pusher delight...
his shirt          stilltucked
neatly into
smartphoned belt
of obedience
his proud steps
mere seconds
from a grave of forgotten
          memories
   lost chances
and
broken moments

poet stripper

I
poet stripper
imbecile whore
await your torture
layer by layer
each in its time
endured
and still
i exist
despite your foolish
dreams of
white picket normalcy
deceptive gaze
 conceals ur
white hot hate.
hidden within
every possession
u think u have
lies the
seeds of freedom...
my sins
pale to your
button down
country club
porn driven hatred
for yourself
and everything
u do...
everything
u want...
shall later be lost.
i lie awake
in the bright
darkness of night
and sleep in
the heat
of the desert sun
my sadness feeds
off the
loneliness of
a sea of tears
an ocean of loss
a people
in morning
and yet
my sins
like the weight of
stone
drag me ever down to u...

Blonde Redhead - 23

Grand Theft

a good artist
copies
a great artist
steals
did u
really think
there is anything
new
the genius of
sliding an eye
to the other side
of the age old
face
a photograph
of beauty
becomes
        an object of love
the melting clock
the bowler hat
the hanging of christ
becomes an
icon
within an icon
and all of the
sudden
u fall
in
love...

4fun... name 3 artists in this poem
and the actor best suited to read it

乌兰托娅 套马杆(高清) A beautiful Chinese song!

Qinghai Lake - Mongolian bilingual, Dai Qing Tana HAYA Orchestra

u can see the below posted documentary on netflix.. it goes way beyond what u might imagine

Bastards of the Party, film Traces the roots of the Bloods and Crips

my love

my thoughts
are like writing
words in water
only to be
swept away
forever lost
but my love
is like the
birth of a star
written on the
soul of the
universe

immortality

immortality,
a kiss within
a kiss
obtained in the
lightness of night
long after
ill suited boys
have left
to suck the blood
out of
their  own
unfortunate souls
i immortal
whore
desired and unloved
by the highest
and lowest
equally
i steal
a kiss within
a kiss
the soul within
a heart
i immortal whore
fulfill my
sacred obligation
to care for
the wretched
to love the damned
and to be
discarded
and abused
left abandoned
and alone
only to wait for the
next lost being
to pay their worthless
currency for my
immortal body...

girl on shore

girl on shore
i standingplanning
in between
this and that
yes and no
stay or go
i cant say so
i stand in these waves
until u
come
and sweep
me away
girl on shore
i say yes
she say no
ima take
off my pants
case the waves
come bigger
come faster
or i just
let them
get wet

Noooooo.....

stop it
with ur Part Time
 smart time raper
this beast
unleashed
on
humans lost
in a world
that uses them up
zombie  street
wall of shame
it feeds on the
misery and
painpain
time to
get up fight back
u think things
are gonna
changechange
ur right
but not the way
thats gonna
do anything
but piss all over
ur soul
look around
isnt that ur
leg they took
away
and by the way
where the fuck's
ur arm
u got nothin left
when u gonna
wake up

kk

I imbecile whore
holy mother
your embryonic lover
    will never
feel your body
my lost spirit
drifts
in empty
canyon walls
unseen
unfelt
longs to take
ur every
pain
to release u
from
ur agonies
i drink them up
i put them
in every opening
of  my body
until they become mine
and disappear
from u
forever
and i your
imbecile whore
never to see u
never to touch
u

i am

i
wake
i imbecile
faded
jadedfaded
pokapoka dot
deep dream
i wake
frozen lock
in the infinite
arms of Mary
marymary
deep whispering
licks deep
canyon walls
deep breathes
i
the imbecile whore
wrapped in
mary's bodybody
begging for
the last of
many lasts
love me
at last
my delusion of pain
breathed
away by your lips
in my mind
i wake
to the gentle fawnkiss
doe lies
by my side in
tall grasslike
Anasazi wilderness
she licks the salt
from my arm
y must
i feed on your
lovely body
i the imbecile
whore

real fast

this is gonna be
reall fast
cuz i gotta go
i was born a girl
in a boys body
i got used to it
gaga
does my make up
i tell her
i love her
she says
mmm, yeah
but she doesn't
i'm a real boy
i'm a real boy
im a real boy
im
a
real
boy

Nothing Comes to Mind

Empty or cluttered
i don really kno
order or dis
it didn really matter
running thru
empty dreams
feed me
anything
my heart
looking for
any kind of promise
downloading tomorrow's
best lie
while selling out
today's now
when will
i
c
u...
again
...